Nikki Bella Admits Something Felt 'Off' When She Got Engaged To John Cena

Nikki Bella Admits Something Felt 'Off' When She Got Engaged To John Cena — 'I Just Know Deep Down I Want A Baby'

If John Cena and Nikki Bella are going to get back together, they need to make sure they're on the same page.

On the season 2 premiere of Total Bellas , you can see Nikki having doubts about her then-upcoming marriage to the 41-year-old because that would mean she was giving up her dream of having children.

During the episode, the reality star's connection with her sister Brie Bella 's daughter, Birdie , puts everything into perspective for her.

Nikki says during an on-camera interview:
"I just look at Birdie's face and never thought I could have this connection with a baby. I want to give her everything and make sure she has the greatest life. I've never felt that unconditional love."

Brie chimes in:
"Or Birdie is placed here on this planet to let you know you can have a connection like that with your own."

Later on, Nikki says she was coming to terms with never being a mom after John said "absolutely not" about having children:

"I was like 100 percent okay not being a mom but Birdie just gets cuter by the day."

Brie responds:
"It's such a load of shit. Nicole, what the fuck are you doing? There's someone out there who will marry you and give you babies. Someplace in your heart you have to be like, ‘I love you, you're a great man, you're just not for me.'"

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